Wednesday, February 15, 2006

... Valentines day.

I'm single.

I am very happy being single right now.

Tell me why I have to be happy being single around Valentines day when every FREAK out there seems to want to woo me. It can't even be NORMAL people, it has to be crazy stalkerish nasty's who don't take subtle hints (like ignoring, or not responding to direct questions, or---) ok let me start from the beginning.

Antigua is... lacking in a certain type of women. I fall within that type - which makes me a rarity. Therefore if a male likes my type... i.e. not thick, he will more than likely be drawn to me since there's such a small pool of my type..ish women here.

With that being said - OMG freaks galore!

Now I've already mentioned scary naked guy... yeah, he was the first freak (if you don't count the annoying ross med student who tried to come home with me off the plane). Now let me introduce freaky MD. Yes freaky MD tripped over himself to try to carry my books the first couple of days of class, but at this point I was still smitten with small penis (lets just call him sp from now on) since I didn't know about the dissapointment I was about to face.

ANYWAY!

This guy, definitly not attractive. He tells people he's a doctor, how he's already got a job lined up after his clinicals, he signs his name with an MD after it, and he's just a little.... overbearing. I was pretty smug when I found out I beat him in the first rounds of tests - but only you know that, shhh.

Soooo after he does so poorly after his exams he somehow tries to migrate into my study group. We all know he's weird by this point - and I mention to my friend he's being a little too friendly towards me and how I thought I should distance myself since I didn't want drama. They told me to get over myself he's weird with everyone.

For the record I would like to say: I WAS RIGHT.

This freak follows me around like a sick puppy. He's always buying me cheesecake or any other sweet he comes across and I don't even really like sweets. I mean at first I accepted it, until I found out he was running around to everyone asking if I was dating sp. He then proceeds to asking me to the valentines day dance they're throwing here. I MEAN ARE YOU KIDDING?! A DANCE?! I felt bad, I kinda acknowledged him and then told him the next day it wouldn't be a good idea.

I then proceeded to ignore him.

A lot.

I.e. he would walk next to me, I would duck my head and walk faster,
He'd come in our group, I'd leave.

TAKE THE HINT!

But no, know what he does, he keeps asking people if i'm dating sp. He myspace's sp and asks him what he did to "hurt" me so bad so that I'm pissed at him. At the superbowl party he would follow me around, ALONE, would lean against the wall and stare. No shit, STARE.

So I obviously get more freaked out and turn on bitch mode.

Well my mother comes to visit me. IN FRONT OF MY MOTHER he gives me candy, a teddy bear and a card. After I hadn't made eye contact or uttered a word to him in 2 weeks. Now it wasn't handed to me in a manner I could refuse he gave the chocolates to my girlfriend saying it was for the both of us after I ran away from him calling my name after class. Then he sat with us with the damn teddy bear during lunch - agian no eye contact, and I didn't eat any of the chocolate, I passed it around the group. In class he gives me the card - to which I say thank you, and after class he throws the teddy bear at me and runs out.

ARE YOU KIDDING?! WE ARE NOT 10!

So I get shit for "accepting" the stuff, and I'm getting people telling me to either keep it or give it back.

i.e. DRAMA INSERTED HERE

and I'm stuck with this dumbass teddy bear, my mother who is now freaked out I have a stalker because this freak kept turning around in class (yeah she sat with me, and he sat in front of me) to stare at me... freak - and I have people lecturing me on how I should handle the situation

FUCK VALENTINES DAY!

So the consensus is I have to now "break up" with this fucktard, who can't take a clue that I am not interested.

oh yeah - and then my neighbor asked if sp was my "man" and after I replied no (cringing because I knew what was coming next) he proceeded to tell me I was lovely and a whole buttload of shenanigans that annoyed me even more on top of the day's events.

He seems normal though, I think he got the hint I didn't like him when I walked away mid sentence.

Therefore - eff Valentines day

oh yeah, and:

Saturday, February 11, 2006

:(

sooo... i'm such a fickle person. I mean I knew I'd formed a crush on R, but i never thought he actually got to me. He was such a cutie - and down to earth.

ANYWAY

playing on myspace today I see he has a girlfriend. I know it shouldn't bug me because regardless of anything, things between him and I wouldn't have worked out - hello antigua. But still, :(. It made my heart drop.

Hard.

And it made me sad.

She's beautiful she really is - which is awful, I can't even hate on her. She's also the COMPLETE different type than me. I have one body type, she has the other - so it's not like I can compare myself to her either.

This makes me sad :(

Plus I think to myself - that he's a long term relationship type of guy, so he's completely out of the running. He'll get hitched soon.

me = SAD.

I can't think of anything else to write, except :(

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Archives

Soooo since all of my real life friends are finding my other blog - I'm going to take some of the personalish stuff off there and stick it on here.

I'll date them on top so you know when i actually wrote them.

:) enjoy

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Oops...

So I got shitfaced saturday night and ended up hooking up with little penis again... I think it's a mutual understanding that it means nothing between the both of us - but he sucks. He really does. I have to teach him how to do things if this mutually gratifying thing is going to work - because he's not helping me out here dammit!

I got kinda annoyed he tried to sleep with me - he was a little cocky about it (haha get it? little cock... y... ok sorry). He's not the nice kind of guy that takes no as a no, he kept trying - grr.

Anyway - I don't like how he kisses, I don't like how he *ahem* touches, and I don't like how he... *kisses* does that make sense? Think about it. He just sucks at everthing.

grr.

Anyway - I met some really cool people. We went to English harbour, it is BEAUTIFUL. It really is. I met some cool older french men and I kept telling them "ma francais n'est pas tres bonne" and they'd laugh at me. I met these guys from a sailing crew - one of whom was hot as hell until after flirting with me for an hour I noticed his wedding ring. GROSS. I mean come on - respect here.

What else.

Nothing, I had more to vent about yesterday, I guess I waited too long to write this blog.

nic out